“Nothing’s changed and everything has” (79). This thought-provoking statement from Angela Johnson’s novel The First Part Last gives the reader a preview of the insight of Bobby, the protagonist. Bobby is a teenage father who is raising his daughter Feather practically on his own. The novel’s chapters alternate between “now” (life with a baby) and “then” (life before a baby), and throughout the story, Bobby is honest in his reflections on how his life has and has not changed.
As I was reading Bobby’s story, I found myself sympathizing and not sympathizing with him. While his girlfriend is pregnant and they’re at a party with their friends, he reflects, “I’m feeling like an alien” (84). He knows how different his life is going to be, and he can no longer just kick back and relax with his buddies. I found it very easy to connect with his emotions, as I’ve been to plenty of family gatherings where I just felt I didn’t belong. I also couldn’t imagine raising a child while still finishing high school, while at the same time dealing with the emotional agony of essentially losing the child’s mother. That part of his situation pulled at my heartstrings. I really felt his loneliness when he is spray-painting a wall for an entire day: “I’m the pale white ghost boy beside the brown girl who is always looking away. Sometimes in the picture, my brothers show up, make themselves known, and then leave the painting again. Like in real life” (60) Bobby is the only one he knows who is going through this situation, and it’s impossible for the reader not to feel for him.
However, there are some key details that Johnson leaves out about Bobby, and not knowing these details made it hard for me to sympathize with him completely. For example, how is he paying for what his daughter needs? I know it would be overwhelming for a teenager to simply take care of a child, but it seems very unrealistic to just have the money coming from nowhere. Are his parents providing for the granddaughter? Or the mother’s parents? From the descriptions in the book, they seemed well-off, but it is never clear that they could be the ones sending Bobby a check every month. For being a contemporary realistic fiction novel, leaving this key part out of parenting makes teenage parenting look less complicated (not that Johnson depicts it as effortless) than it really must be.
I really started taking issue with the novel when I got to the scene where Paul, Bobby’s older brother, is visiting, and their divorced parents are visiting in the kitchen and laughing, getting along “the way it used to be” (91). Really? I mean, I know plenty of separated couples who maintain civility for their kids’ sakes, but I don’t see any of them sitting around cooking meals together anymore. I tried thinking of why Johnson would present Mary and Fred in this way. Maybe she’s trying to be ideal because her main audience is young people, and if they ever are in a similar situation, they would have seen in a book how it’s possible to be nice toward one’s exes? Or maybe Johnson simply wanted Mary and Fred to be in the same scene since their son Paul didn’t visit too often. Maybe I’m overthinking Johnson’s authorial motives. The whole scenario is still quite unrealistic to me, though.
The “Nia” chapter (115-116) seemed out of place. It completely broke with the Now/Then pattern of the rest of the novel’s chapters. Why give her point of view at only this one point in the novel? Why not more often throughout? She was the pregnant teenager, after all. The chapter sounded forced and strange, at a moment of the story that the reader should only feel empathy for Nia; not confusion as to what the author is trying to do.
Finally, the last chapter was hackneyed and, again, unrealistic. What 16-year-old father can just pack up and move to a new city, get an apartment, and raise his daughter? The fact that he moves to Heaven, Ohio, was just too corny for me to handle. The novel that started out as an imperfect love story, which definitely fit the genre of contemporary realism, seemed to spiral into fantasy for the last 30 pages or so. Overall, I liked the message that even if one isn’t ready to be a parent, one needs to do the best job possible. I just felt that young adults reading this book for guidance might be blindsided if they ever are in a similar situation as Bobby’s; life just isn’t that simple.