“It’s always about my brother. My brother was a black hole in my universe. He was sucking the life right out of me…the crater was deep and dark and closing in on us. We couldn’t move, couldn’t rise, couldn’t see to find our way out” (117).
Being a teenager can be hard enough, as that is the time that most learn about what kind of person they are. In that way, Julie Anne Peters’ Luna is just like any other coming-of-age novel. The difference is, there are not too many novels out there that are about transgender teens. Regan O’Neill tells the story of being the only one who knows that her brother is transgender, or transsexual, as he later identifies himself as.
Although I can relate to the pressure felt from keeping secrets, I’ve never thought what it would be like for people like Regan. Luna has made me consider this perspective. It’s much more often that I hear how isolated people feel who identify as gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender; I’ve never really considered how those that are close to LGBT people are affected. Really, though, Regan seems more isolated than Liam/Luna. “I hated high school…People joking and laughing with their friends in the hall. High school flaunted it, threw it in my face, all the fun I wasn’t having…I had lots of friends when I was little, in preschool. First grade, second. Before friendship got complicated. Before it came with expectations” (47). Anyone who has ever kept a secret to themselves, not seeing a way to relieve the pressure that comes with that responsibility, can appreciate and sympathize what Regan is experiencing.
I also felt sympathy for Regan in the fact that she felt trapped by Liam/Luna; that she couldn’t live her own life because she spent all of her free time worrying and protecting him/her. It was a little painful to read about how she didn’t know how to behave with Chris, the boy who wants to date her, and it was very painful in a scene where she, Aly, and Liam are watching TV. “Me? I had no dreams. Dreams only set you up for disappointment. Plus, you had to have a life to have dreams of a better life” (98).
One of the prominent themes is the expectations that society places on young adults. It is expected of Regan to do the dishes and cook dinner when their mother won’t be home on time from work. It is expected that she do well in school because her older brother is a naturally gifted student. It is expected that Regan has girlfriends over for middle school slumber parties, and that her older brother Liam not be a part of it. And, it is expected that Liam play sports and date girls. I have always felt that it is good for teenagers to know what is expected of them; it gives them direction and purpose in their lives. However, what if those expectations are unfair, or inappropriate? What should society do to ensure that teenagers like Regan and Liam/Luna feel safe to question certain expectations? Clearly, they do not feel safe with their parents, most of their peers, or strangers, and that is why they both feel suffocated. I think that is what I found most troubling in reading this novel.